I’m really sad dude. I don’t know what any of this means. I don’t know why I got sick, I don’t know why God put you in my life to make things better, just to remove you from my life a short time later. I don’t know if you ignoring me is your advice to me, that all we have is ourselves, we are all we have, you only have yourself in the end..But when my life was so chaotic, you looked after me and were the only one who could slow things down. It’s like imagining your life as a busy highway but having that calm moment where everything can come to a hault. You were the only one who could do that. By no means do I mean to interrupt your life. If you’re happy, good. Stay happy. Don’t let anything bring you down. Your smile is what made me weak in the knees. But when I told you to run, you should of but you didn’t. Because I know somewhere deep down in your now empty chest you look back. I’m getting sicker. I just expected that you’d never fail me. If I needed you, you’d be there for me. No matter the time, place, day, or situation. I guess life isn’t very fair though. It never has been with me. I’m losing faith and that’s something I promised myself I wouldn’t do. But what do you do when all hopes lost?
